Sometimes life really sucks!

Week 4 has been challange! Many things have come down upon me and my family this week. My husband is struggling with his personal challanges and is finally asking for help. We celebrated Addisons 5th birthday with his friends and the next day with our family. Needless to say...stress and exhaustion turned me back to food as a coping mechanism.

I woke up today and restarted my resolve to us food a fuel first....the day went well. I am trying to give myself a little break...everything that has been happening over the last month is taking its toll...I need to take some down time to care for myself and my needs. Blogging is one of those things that I want to do for myself...just to get all the stuff out!

So today I journalled, stayed within my points and threw out the rest of the damn cake. No one but me eats the stuff...and I am paying money to loose weight, therefore the cake is gone. I am going to weigh in in the morning. I am ready for little to no weight loss this week and likely next week too. As I read early on- I am treating this as a pregnancy when you want to not be pregnant any longer you can just throw in the towel, you need to continue through the whole nine months (God willing). My due date isn't until December 30th....I will come back after weigh in on Wednesday and update.

Oh Crap! I mean to sit down and blog every night...but then the kids go to bed and I am done! Anyway, I am on week three of my WW program...I have had 6.8 lbs off to date. Tomorrow is meeting day :@ I am actually excited to see how things are going. I feel like I have been doing things well...but Easter was yesterday...so I now have candy around that I wouldn't normally have. I have been writing down everything that goes into my mouth and I did get some exercise points today....Hey I didn't get this fat can overnight...I have to give myself some time.

243lbs

Well, so far things are going okay! First week down and on my way. I was really pleased with the weight loss, just starting to get crazy...figuring out how long it will take to meet my goals if I loose 2 lbs/week. I have to stop this thought process, it will just set me up! I am not sure if it is purely because I am soooo tired. My daughter has yet another cold and hasn't been sleeping through the night again. I have also picked up some extra time to cover vacations at work. I am trying to keep focused but at times loose sight of the big picture-> a life without weight obsessions! I truly hope that when I reach my goal weight that I will be very aware of where my weight is and keep it within a 5 lb range! My aunt manages to do this nicely and it makes everything easier when you only have 5 lbs to loose vs the 80lbs I am facing right now. Well, off to surf for inspiration!