It's a learning process

235.4lbs.

Well, I didn't wake up one day fat! Why do I continue to think that the process will be easy....eat less, track the input and try to increase the exercise. Well, I certainly didn't wake up one morning and try to put my clothes on and find that rather than a size 12 I am actually a 20. No I got there honestly and happily eating everything in site. I have been struggling the last few weeks because I was faced with some family stuff that I had been ignoring for a long time. Well, I now have to face this and I realize that I have no control over other people and their choices. My husband is going through a tough realization and it scares me. So what do I do? Well, I turn to the fat/sweet/gooey and cruchy therapist that I have used for years.

My challenge this week it so acknowledge this habit and try to identify the feelings and thoughts before putting food in my trap mindlessly. I'm not saying that I won't eat the things I am craving but hopefully if I identify the feelings I may beable to pass by the cookie dough. (although sometimes it just tastes really good!)

My goals for this upcoming week are to continue to track honestly, eat within my points and hopefully increase my activity. The weather is supposed to be pretty crappy, so I will definately try but I certainly don't see myself heading out in the cold and nasty rain to walk! But hey, you never know.

This weekend is Mother's Day. The husband doesn't believe in the "Hallmark" holidays, but I hope that he has heard my hints and at least trys to get the kids into a little something for me and my day. I mean, I did get the day off, that should tell him that others think its an important day. But I am trying not to get my hopes up. Well, off to my last 2 points of the day...a 2 pt Ice Cream Cone...now that is something to look forward to.